just about random things.
But..
I feel like these thoughts will continue to refuse to leave me alone until I get them out.
So here it goes..
relationships are freakin' hard.
I am so worn out from putting 150% effort into something that doesn't work out.
Yes, I do realize I am only 19 years old..
but those fairy tale endings and high school sweetheart stories do exist.
Why couldn't I be one of the lucky ones??
haha
Since I absolutely REFUSE to have kids in my 30's,
I have got to find this man of mine and start living my life!
friendships can sometimes be difficult too.
When I attended U of A this year, I lost all of my close friends from home.
We were all so busy with school, work, and different schedules that we hardly talked at all.
I hate to live with regrets,
but I should have done more to keep those friendships going.
I have seen them since I returned home and it made me realize that I would be absolutely crazy to lose these girls as friends because I can't find an extra minute to call and say hi.
So.. my "new school-year resolution" is to keep all my friendships from home strong.
Think I can handle it?
how am I going to survive without my brother at home?
For nineteen years, he has been here whenever I needed him.
I don't know how I am going to handle moving him to Colorado this weekend.
It amazes me how fast time flies right by us...
I do feel a little better after getting all of this off my chest.
I guess what I need to realize is that:
1.) Life is tough and you have two options: Feel sorry for yourself and complain or choose to be happy and live the life that you want.
2.) Although we might have a ton of "plans" for our life.. there really is no such thing. What is meant to happen will happen. We have no control over that so Jenaye needs to stop worrying about finding this man of hers. :)
but at 1:20 am, I'm a little short on good ideas.
I hope everyone is having a fabulous week!
I will let you know how moving Preston to Colorado goes this weekend!
3 comments:
Keep livin' girl. Having babies in your 30s is not that bad of a concept. I am going on 35 this year, and I am still childless. ;) I have accomplished a lot in these mommyless years. ;)
ENJOY now and take it s-l-o-w. My friends who had their babies young are extremely envious of me. ;)
I feel your pain... boys are lame, girlfriends make up for it :)
keep on Truckin!!!! Miss seeing you are you going to be working this summer at SBE??? And if so, I am stocked!!!!!
YIPPEE!!!!
And that is so wonderful how close you are with your brother. Meliesa was close to Andrew when they were younger and inseperatable but, not much now. Maybe one day that would change. I think she is more closer to our son Jesus now. but, not me. LOL
Ok, well take care
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