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I have been thinking a lot recently
just about random things.
But..
I feel like these thoughts will continue to refuse to leave me alone until I get them out.
So here it goes.. First,
relationships are freakin' hard.
I am so worn out from putting 150% effort into something that doesn't work out.
Yes, I do realize I am only 19 years old..
but those fairy tale endings and high school sweetheart stories do exist.
Why couldn't I be one of the lucky ones??
haha
Since I absolutely REFUSE to have kids in my 30's,
I have got to find this man of mine and start living my life! Relationships with guys aren't the only tough relationships..
friendships can sometimes be difficult too.
When I attended U of A this year, I lost all of my close friends from home.
We were all so busy with school, work, and different schedules that we hardly talked at all.
I hate to live with regrets,
but I should have done more to keep those friendships going.
I have seen them since I returned home and it made me realize that I would be absolutely crazy to lose these girls as friends because I can't find an extra minute to call and say hi.
So.. my "new school-year resolution" is to keep all my friendships from home strong.
Think I can handle it? Lastly,
how am I going to survive without my brother at home?
For nineteen years, he has been here whenever I needed him.
I don't know how I am going to handle moving him to Colorado this weekend.
It amazes me how fast time flies right by us... I have to admit,
I do feel a little better after getting all of this off my chest.
I guess what I need to realize is that:
1.) Life is tough and you have two options: Feel sorry for yourself and complain or choose to be happy and live the life that you want.
2.) Although we might have a ton of "plans" for our life.. there really is no such thing. What is meant to happen will happen. We have no control over that so Jenaye needs to stop worrying about finding this man of hers. :) I'm sure I could think of more advice for myself
but at 1:20 am, I'm a little short on good ideas.
I hope everyone is having a fabulous week!
I will let you know how moving Preston to Colorado goes this weekend! Peace Girls!
It's me again.
At the beginning of the school year, I wrote you a letter explaining how much I hated you for taking me away from my friends, family, and the job that I loved so much. I look back at that letter, disgusted with my rude remarks and negative attitude.
I am sorry for belittling you and making you feel like the worst thing in the world.
As my freshman year comes to an end,
I want to thank you for so many things. 1.) Thank you for pushing me to become a much harder worker than I was in high school. You taught me that college is a lot tougher than I thought it would be, but at the same time, you made me realize that I can do it. (Even after all those essays and projects I was convinced I wouldn't survive through.) 2.) Thank you for introducing me to a TON of great people... many of whom are my close friends now. 3.) Thank you for making me understand that time management is EVERYTHING. 4.) Thank you for bringing my Mom and I closer together while being so far away from her. We have both noticed that we wouldn't be able to manage without at least one phone call a day to each other. (That doesn't include e-mails or text messages.) You really have showed me that no matter what happens, she will always be my best friend. 5.) Thank you for allowing me to spend one year with my brother. Even though I didn't totally take advantage of seeing him a lot, I am very appreciative that I was lucky enough to have him here. 6.) Thank you for the free gym across the street from my dorm. You know... that one that I hardly ever used... :/ 7.) THank you for all of the great memories that I will never forget. 8.) Finally, thank you for making me become a little more independent. I know now that I am capable of being away from my parents for long periods of time. I never thought I would be able to do that! I have gone through so much during my first year of college... My first frat party (calm down Madre), my first cab ride, being away from my parents, losing my family's best friend.. our dog Barkley, and my first grade of a "B". I will take all of these experiences with me throughout my life and learn from them. Thank you, again, for everything. I will see you in a few months! Sincerely,
Jenaye
I know I haven't blogged in a while..
and most of you don't know that I got a job in Tucson!
I am working at a new Forever 21 store that took over the old Mervyn's store at Tucson Mall.
This place is
MASSIVE
with 65,000 square feet and 2 floors!
It's definitely a shopper's paradise!
However.. after working over well over 30 hours each week,
I guess I forgot:1. How impatient Jenaye can get.
2. How bad my feet hurt after working 5 or more hours at a time.
3. How annoying traffic is in the sense that it almost makes me late for work.
4. How it feels to make a little extra spending money.
5. How inconsiderate people can be in the retail industry. I had an advising appointment this morning for my class schedule next year.
I can't believe this school year is almost over!
Time flies by so fast.. Tomorrow is my roommate's Birthday.
She is turning the big 1-9.
So this is my shout-out to her.
Happy Birthday Lauren! Nothin' else is really new with me.
I'm just tryin' to get through these last weeks of school while working ridiculous hours.
I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend and I will do my best to keep updating this baby! Peace Girls!
As this week comes to an end,
I have some good news and some bad news.I think I'm gonna start with the bad news first,
cause I'm about 99.84024% positive you won't wanna end with this image in your head.
Ok.. here it goes..
On Monday evening,
I was feeding our fish
{Andres Flores
Ole Ole Ole
Philipe Guacamole
Martinez Gonzalez}
and I noticed his stomach was lookin' a little larger than normal.
After an intense investigation by yours truly,
I came to the conclusion that:
OUR FISH HAS A FREAKIN' TUMOR.
(Yes, very weird.. I know.)
This ugly lump has been getting bigger each day and I have no stinkin' idea what to do!
I don't want the poor little guy to suffer..
but at the same time,
How the heck would I kill it to put it out of it's misery??
After all,
I have a little confession:My name is Jenaye Lauren Collins
and I save bugs from the pool. How can I personally kill a fish
if I hate watching bugs die?!
I'm in a rough spot to say the least.. On to the good news! I made history yesterday when I
SIGNED A LEASE FOR MY FIRST APARTMENT!
(Don't pass out Mom.) I am so unbelievably excited!
The part that I'm lookin' forward to the most is
decorating.
I am also lovin' the fact that I will have a full-sized fridge
AND
my own washer and dryer!
{Cha-ching}
I am livin' with three other really nice girls.
To make things even better,
we each get our own bathroom!
:) I got some pictures respresenting my hopes and dreams for my apartment.
However, I do realize these are just DREAMS,
and not reality whatsoever.
BUT...
if I could, I would make my apartment look like this:The Kitchen:
The Living Room:
The Bedroom:
And the Bathroom:
Oh how I wish that was possible.. I have a test tomorrow and
I have no plans for this weekend..
I will probably try to get some homework done.
Sadly,
I won't be comin' home til Spring Break
which is March 16-20. Have a great weekend! Peace Girls!
This past weekend was wonderful!
On Friday, I went to a car show with my dad.
He was so excited that I finally went with him and actually rode in his GTX with him.
It is so funny to me how proud he is of that thing..
I guess it must be a guy thing.
:) From there, Seth picked me up and we went to ASU (booooo!!) to watch a few bands play.
Besides the fact that it felt like Antarctica outside, it was really fun! On Saturday,
I got up kinda early
(early as in like ten o'clock)
and made myself some pancakes.
Usually my dad makes them for me and I decided after tasting mine,
that I'm definitely gonna leave the pancake-making to him. Later that day, Seth picked me up and we went to Chandler Mall.
What I am about to say might surprise you all:
I didn't buy anything.
To be honest, I'm kinda really proud of myself!
I guess it's easier not to buy anything when you are flat out broke though.
;) After the mall,
we went back to Seth's house
where he cooked me an amazing Valentine's Day dinner.
It was so thoughtful of him to make my favorite meal!
He even got my favorite dessert! Ok, you might be surprised again...
but we totally broke up that night.
I'm not gonna go into detail,
but things just weren't workin' out the way we wanted them to.
But let me tell ya.. there's no way I'm givin' up!
Hopefully everything will work out in the end.
But for now,
I've just gotta load my dorm room with cookies and some white chocolate-covered pretzels.
:)Needless to say,
my Monday has been a little rough.
And...
I'm actually feelin' a little stressed for the first time this semester.
I need to get goin' on all my work tomorrow to make sure it's done by Friday.
After all, I'm going home again for my Mom's Birthday!
:)
{Love you Madre!} I hope everyone is havin' a great week so far! Peace Girls!
I have kept you girls waiting long enough...
I finally have a picture with the new man.
:)
I am feelin' kinda really productive this week.
I have gotten ahead in almost all of my classes
and I am so glad to not be feelin' stressed! Even more exciting news...
I found a roommate for next year!!
I am going out to dinner with her tonight to talk about where we wanna live!
I will keep you updated.
:) Madre is outta town for work stuff.
Her and I have a date on Valentine's Day since I gotta pick her up from the airport.
Can't wait to see her! Hope everyone is having a great week so far! Peace girls!
I was sitting in my room and I realized that I needed to update my blog.
But...
I didn't exactly know what to write about this time since nothin' new has really been goin' on.
So I decided that I'm gonna make a list of things that not a whole lot of people know about me.
I know,
kinda weird,
but it's somethin' a little different than normal.
Here it goes! 1. I have to sleep with my closet doors closed or I can't fall asleep.
2. I am 19 years old and I still sleep with my baby blanket (named Blue Blanky) and my bear (named Joey).
3. I have to match at all times.. even my pajamas have to coordinate.
4. If I could have one talent in the whole world, I would want to be able to sing.
5. I miss dancing like crazy and I want to start taking classes again extremely bad.
6. I have a serious addiction to shoes and purses.
7. I totally snort when I laugh.
8. My Mom is my best friend of all time.
9. I absolutely HATE Home Depot and Costco..
the whole warehouse type thing just isn't workin' for me.
10. I straight up jam out in my car when I'm by myslf.
11. Never in my life will I not have blonde hair.
12. High school was probably one of the worst times of my life and I would never go back if given the chance.
13. I'm kinda overly obsessed with ribbon.
:/
14. I am a firm believer that you can do anything you put your mind to. You just have to be willing to put in the hard work.
15. I am way too concerned about what other people think about me.
16. I wouldn't trade my life for anybody else's.
17. My cooking skills go about as far as mac -n- cheese.
18. I despise UGG boots. I think they are hideous.
(Sorry if you own a pair.)
19. My favorite numbers are 14 and 45 and they seem to follow me everywhere.
20. I am probably the most impatient person you will ever meet.
I would not recommend driving with me.
:) I am coming home this weekend
(thank goodness)
and I've got a few cards to make and a cute boy to see.
:)
Preston has his interview in Colorado tomorrow..
I'm kinda really stinkin' nervous for him.
But I know he is gonna do great! I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend! Peace Girls!
